On Saying

If something important needs to be said, it is likely already been. If something revolutionary needs to be said, it is humanity's responsibility to state it.

2006 11 10 @ 04 58
-William Boller... that is if someone has not already said this ;-)

Message to TR Knight

To TR Knight:

I must have the worst gaydar a gay guy could have - I would have never guessed you were family! Kudos on your acting skills, and Kudos on how you're dealing with coming out. Be proud that this is not coming as a surprise. Your coming out is giving Hollywood a much-needed dose of regular homosexual. I hate to compare you to them, but Darren Hayes and Lance Bass came as no surprise, were flames when they were famous, and now paint ridiculous, stereotypical pictures of gay celebrities.

A lot of gay guy's are asking, "Does he have a boyfriend?" The answer most of these guy's want to hear is, "No," so they can ask you out. I actually want to hear, "Yes," because it's already difficult to find love in this gay world. Mixing in the drama of tabloids and drooling fans would complicate life to no end. Being a gay celebrity limits 'options' to fellow out-of-the-closet, celebrity peers. I hate rumors, but Lance's Amazing-Race-winning activist boyfriend, Richen, is allegedly an alcoholic. If true, Lance has a lot on his plate and not many choices. He could break-up, but not only would he have to abandon someone whom he probably loves, but also have a real shitty dating pool for a respectable relationship. His other option would be dealing with what he's been given, but then he would probably end up with learning the hard way that he can't change someone.

On a different subject (and forgive the shameless plug): Would you be interested in attending a few performances at Moorpark College? I am a member of Moorpark College's drama club, and it would be a great honor to have a successful actor to critique and advise based off your personal experience. I would be more than psyched.

Thank you again for providing a fresh example for the world to be aware of. I really do hope for the best in your life personally and professionally. And I greatly appreciate any consideration you give to viewing a piece at Moorpark College.

Yours truly,
William "Buddy" Boller
BuddyBoller@gmail.com
--Other Info
Moorpark College Theatre Department: http://www.moorparkcollege.edu/theatre/
Moorpark College Fall 2006 Schedule: http://www.moorparkcollege.edu/htdocs/news/pac/

October 16 2006 - Journal 9 - Acting

Today, in acting, I was critiqued on my growth thus far this semester. I have grown very little from the beginning of the semester. The only skill I improved on was the beginnings of memorization. It is not quite conquered yet, but I have the beginnings to accomplish it. Much of the criticism regarded me to not be so hard on myself, and that I am amazing to work with. One of my most awkward classmates said that I had helped her become comfortable with her acting skills. This made me feel really proud of myself and happy that I had made a difference in other people's lives.
Then Kathy commented that I bring a lot of what happens in my life and 'act it out' on the stage. Which is true, because I do use acting as a loose group therapy. I kinda became teary eyed, because everyone expressed that they felt I was a big ball of happy energy and they hardly even know me. I was even told I was a 'free spirit'.
This all is ironic because I feel far from being a free spirit. I am stuck; I live at home with my folks; I don't have a car or a driver's license; and I'm far from being out, on my own, and independent. I must be a really good actor, then. I can put on a facade that I am happy when, in fact, I have no reason to be happy.
I actually feel that I am more of a writer/director. I would rather sit back an analyse the human experience and tell people how to portray life. This acting class is very good for me, because it forces me to look to myself and express myself. If acting were to have not been introduced to me, I would still be very socially awkward